so the new year is scary for me. new years eve was nice...may have had a bit too much wine combine with some other tasty drinks and jager, but i wasn't too bad the next day AND the highlight of my night: i went to a bar which had a DJ, toasted champagne at midnight, quickly smooched my boy, and got to dance to KE$HA!! my new idol. i've listened to some of her CD and while i may not buy the whole thing, i'm definitely preparing to purchase a few of her groovy tunes. and tik tok is my current favorite song. and i am a secret dance fiend. so it was all perfect.
BUT 2010 is a scary year for me because:
- i get my wisdom teeth out (tomorrow! ah!)
- i take the PRAXIS in less than a week which is only the most important test of my life because it determines whether i get my teaching certification - and as a side note, i just bought two books to study today and am freaking out even more because i have a lot to learn in a week it seems
- student teaching kindergartners - speaks for itself
- i graduate from college. done with being a kid forever.
- i have to be a real world being and find a job. and then provide for myself.
- i need to figure out a plan about my future in general
even just typing all that out makes me apprehensive about welcoming 2010. however, i guess i need to see it as exciting in starting the new chapter in my life.
i also thought about my new years resolutions...and i don't really know what exactly i want to do. but i decided to sit down right here and write down some things i want to accomplish this year so that i will remember.
- be more open to trying new things/saying yes instead of no
- be more decisive and outspoken in teaching
- say what is on my mind more
- try to be more carefree (about things i can be carefree about of course)
- do what makes me happy
- learn to cook
- eat healthy and balanced
- complete P90X in it's entirety, maybe more than once
- write more letters to people (the snail mail type)
- take more pictures, and save/print/organize them
- travel to somewhere new
- complete another mud run
- don't give up on teaching after the first year if for some reason i don't like it (or heaven forbid, don't find a job)
- don't spend time being upset over little things
- keep organized and tidy
- stay connected to friends and make an effort to see them
- try something new
those are a few basic things that i can think of that i want to do and that i need to work on. i'm nervous but excited to see what the new year will bring! i hope i can look back and say it was a great 2010.
i'm listening to a lot of ke$ha's new CD. sometimes i wish i could be a singer (or famous) and have that carefree "i don't give a shit about what i do and what i wear, i just want to go out and have fun" attitude. and sing about stupid ridiculous shit that you can dance to. and the thing is that this chick had a scholarship to colombia, but gave it up to pursue singing. and it worked for her. i'm excited about teaching, but sometimes i wonder if i'll be good and there are just so many rules and regulations you have to follow (and teach the kids so many rules and their place in the classroom/life)...it's just like the opposite of what i truly want to be. i like breaking the rules and being carefree. so great, now i'm doubting my profession i thought i was passionate about. i need to be a good role model and can't act the way i want sometimes. but i do love kids and i think it is my calling to make an impact in their life.
anyway. too much rambling. this entry is long. good for a first go at blogging in the new year i suppose haha. here's to 2010!
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